A lot of shit has happened to me over the past 2 weeks. <
I wrote a whole bunch of stuff which I wanted to say but deleted it because I have moved on and don’t need to write it out>. Now we are at ground zero and there’s nothing to look but up. My sis in law has been wonderful. She has been reaching out to me and vice versa. Without her forgiveness and kind heart, things would of turned out differently. I seek my sister in law for kindness and her awkward humor. She makes me smile inside and out. I can finally see her for who she is and not what I perceive her family to be.
Its a daily reminder and gut check I must give myself to be thankful to have inlaws who will always be supportive. They will always love me, and my daughter.
What I learned is to check my ego at the door and be open-minded about others. Don’t let my past affect the future. Live for the present.
Wed Aug 17 – meet inlaws, not internally resolved, need to retaliate
Thu Aug 18 – feelings fester, made public
Fri Aug 19 – called out on festered feelings, scared, insecure, hurt
Sat Aug 20 – preparing for camping trip, busy, emotionally exhausted
Sun Aug 21 – 4 hours to make tent, emotionally and physically exhausted
Mon Aug 22 – Rained out, campsite flooded, emotionally and physically exhausted
Tue Aug 23 – 12 loads of soaking wet laundry, physically exhausted
Wed Aug 24 – second period since giving birth, heavy heavy heavy, physically exhausted
Thr Aug 25 – heavy heavy heavy, physically exhausted
Fri Aug 26 – heavy heavy heavy, physically exhausted, took iron pill due to extreme bleeding
Sat Aug 27 – physically exhausted, period lightening, ate dinner until stuffed
Sun Aug 28 – bikramyoga, threw up last nite dinner and 1 litre H2O, broke down, emotionally and physically exhausted, the pinnacle of my week of hell
Thur Sept 1 – signed off on sold house, anxiety ridden but over now